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Guilt by Association (2002)
IMDB rating: 6.50
Plot: Life is good for Susan, her two children and new boyfriend Russell. But life abruptly changes when she discovers her perfect boyfriend is a drug dealer. Realising the danger this could bring to her family she tells him to leave. Suddenly her house is raided and Susan is arrested as a co-conspirator in Russell’s drug business. Her situation goes from bad to worse when she finds herself behind bars with violent criminals. How will she ever prove her innocence when the system seems against her? Guilty By Association is a disturbing story based on true events
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Directors: Campbell Graeme
Actors: Carter Alex,Blumas Trevor,Magder Daniel,Drama,
Is it bad or good that people find me funny for reasons I don't understand?
Im 17, female, socially awkward, and since high school started people seem to gradualy find me more and more funny. Before that, I never, nor did I really care, to make people laugh. I was almost always quiet, but with friends I took everything serious, like little stupid things in an annoying way, but was very goofy around close friends and at home). To be more clear, before high school, I wasn’t funny and didn’t care, and now as a senior, it seems to be a dominant part of my personality (when I’m not being quiet) for things that I do on purpose and for things I do not do on purpose (gestures with hands, certain faces I make a lot, the way I say things like chopping up the way i say stuff, moving around when I talk, dancing sorta when I talk (im good with isolations haha).
I guess it started in 10th grade, when I stopped taking stuff serious, and when during sports practices I was able to stop being extremely reserved, and probably appeared more genuine. So, then in both 10th and 11th grade, for some reason, people would laugh when I had said stuff, but I didn’t really have a good sense of humor. These "people" usually were extroverted, funny, and social, and for some reason just found me entertaining. So there would be people that were basicially socially "superior" that were amused by how I acted, and told me I was funny. This did not really happen to people around my level socially.
All I can say is that it kinda confused me, I liked that "being me" more had made people laugh, but it was more "at" me, even though it was in a nice way. It wasn’t like I tripped and people laughed (i guess that probably happened at some point though heh), it just seemed like there was some way I was acting that made people laugh (unless I was extra quiet), and it usually happened when i felt socially inferior because they were so extroverted. How I acted then pretty much stemmed from my social awkwardness, which is way I didn’t like it, because it represented sorta a struggle I’ve tried to overcome, which I usually have done by being quiet, but that gets me nowhere.
Okay, so now I’m a senior, and in the past year or two I’ve gradually developed a sense of a humor that I do intentionally only because I don’t want people to people to laugh ONLY for my awkward gestures and stuff. I actually feel pretty satifisfied (although I think it will grow more) with the intentional humor I’ve developed. I feel like I would never have cared to get one if it wasn’t for people already finding me funny for my awkwardness.
I guess the way I would describe my intentional humor is making funny connections/associations, witty, play on words, etc.. I can do it often now and saying it sooner for good timing, basically whenever I feel like it in a comfortable situation, and it might come out whenever I’m uncomfortable.
So, now the unintentional stuff I do is still with me, and I guess its part of me. I just HATE that I can’t control it, but people seem to enjoy it, especially when they are social and funny. It derives from my social incompetence, although that has definitely been improving, but things like this just remind me of it.
I feel like the more I embrace my "quirkiness" the more likeable I become, but I just don’t know. I never asked for this, and it just never seemed like it would happen to me. I guess i’ve always been socially incompetent, and I all I wanted was to be be perceieved as normal, confident, and not weird…that never happened, but I’m kinda glad it didn’t now that I’ve accepted it. I found out like I really like people and it makes life way more fun to have friends to joke around with.
I guess I just feel conflicted about the situation. Its bittersweet, and I’m very bad at making small talk. I’m much more socially aware now, but lack social skills in many situations. I feel really underserving of people finding me funny sometimes. I guess have more intentional humor rids away this guilt more. I don’t know I should try to get rid of the awkward stuff I do, or just embrace it. Its so hard to get rid of, and it kinda lower my self esteem when people find it funny.
You have obviously put a lot of thought into this. Quit sweating the small stuff. If you don’t like people laughing at you because you do something awkward don’t do it! Do something else this is funny.
More importantly don’t worry so much about what people think of you because you will end up reading into things that have no meaning.
Don’t be so hard on yourself. You sound like a normal 17 year old who is struggling like everyone else to find their voice in this world.
Radio>Tv | Nov 03, 2009
You seem really smart. I have a friend like what you described, people usually laugh at him but he laughs with us because he knows it’s silly/kinda stupid too. But you seem pretty articulate and usually that’s what people laugh my friend for, when he doesn’t articulate the right message. So I don’t know what kind of funny you do.
YOYO | Nov 03, 2009
SIMPLE- it none of your BUSINESS what people think about you.
what is IMPORTANT is what you think about you.
if you think, feel , believe you are funny person then you are funny,
if you think you are not funny person then your are not.
OUR SOCIETY HAS CONDITIONIED OUR MINDS SO STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT YOU ,
THINK WHAT YOU THINK IS RIGHT NOT SOCIETY AND THE PEOPLE OF THIS SOCIETY.
unknownperson | Nov 03, 2009
People like others who are different
Pam R | Nov 03, 2009
